So, last night was hell...

Last night was probably one of the roughest times Ive had in a while (well on an up note it's nice to have someone to comfort and essentially empower you...Thanks Sam)

I finally let Kristie kno how I had been feeling. After being hung up on for the 6th time, I decided not to call back, and let her call me. She called but it still left things rather unresolved. So I was still up then. I didn't get to bed till around 2am...good thing I dont have class till 2pm :)...because I wrote her a letter. I said everything that I had been dyin to get off my cheast, but couldnt for fear that she would be pissed or upset wit me. Im jus glad I've gotten to say my piece. She can take it how she wants at this point, but one way or another change will come.

Love isnt one sided, its about compromise...Im jus tired of being the one to be at the short end of the stick...I give give give...now its my turn to recieve

Just2confused...

this has honestly been a long time commin. Things havent been right. I honestly cant remember the last time me and Kristie made love. She's always pissed at me for one thing or another and continues to push me away. She'll tell me she loves me...but its like why do u treat the one u love like crap. Why do u want me to feel guilty for wanting to spend time wit my bestfriends when Im with you everynight, every free moment. Im young and its my freshman year of college...I should b nakin friendships that last a lifetime. Dont get me wrong, Ive loved tha time we've spent together but its jus gotten a lot harder. Its like a chore anymore.

"No, I better not, Kristie will b mad if i study wit the group without tellin her, no I cant play flagfootball, she'll be mad cuz thats free time I could be spendin wit her. No I cant model, she doesnt want ne one else to see my body...etc, etc, etc"

I wanna try to make this work but she doesnt wanna compromise...I jus really dont know nemore, I thought I was in love, maybe I still am...I thought she could change...but maybe she can't...holla atcha girl