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Today is really just one of those days.
Everything is seemin wrong.
I missed the birth of my bestfriend's baby, and still havent seen her
My mom is about to undergo surgery
The car is a POS
My girl is mad at me
Brittany is away in the military
what the fuck more?

Why Can't I Get Off???

Yea so went to see Four Brothers at the movies yesterday (which was absolutely awsome might I add) wit my girl...Things went perfectly. We got Steak n Shake to go and ate dinner in bed. Then we jus cuddled up together in her warm bed and she feel asleep in my arms (or was it vice versa?) anyway, the next day (today) we woke up at 7 like always cuz she had to go to work and still had to take me home. But I decided that I would do somethin special for her.

Went down on her for a qwikie just because I wanted to make sure she started her day off great. Everything was goin according to plan. I could feel her body tense and pulse as my tounge moved and massaged her cunt. Then she came! I thought we would be done but she wanted to return the favor. So she takes off my pajama bottoms and black thong and starts to do the deed. It felt so good but I just couldnt come. So I figured it was because I had to pee and was holding back cuz I didnt wanna piss on her. So I go to the bathroom, come back and we picked up where we left off. It felt so good...I was almost there but I just couldnt come. It wasnt her fault but I just couldnt convince her of that. So we have to go because she couldnt be late for work.

I felt really bad because I kno she really wanted to get me off. She was pissed and she was about to cry. I kept telling her that it was really good, cuz it was I jsut didnt quite come is all. So this is the second time in a row that I didnt come so shes upset. I told her not to be cuz its not her fault. Nothing I say can convince her otherwise tho.

What should I do???

Trouble in Paradise

Things with my girl had been goin great, but now they are changing. Iev spent every night of the last wek with her. Yet she is doubting my feelings for her and I keep trying to reassure her that Im not like her ex's. I try to telll her and show her that I care, I dont know what more I can do. She thinks that once I start school Ill be too busy for her and that I will find someone else. I told her shes the only one I want, but she doesnt believe me. This is so crazy. I dont think Ive ever cared about someone this way. Well anyway Ill probably post later...

Long Time No Post...

Yeah...its true, Ive been back and have neglected my poor blog:(

but since then a lotta good stuff has happened and Ive been quite busy. My mom finally got her apartment and Im gonna be living back wit her until school starts in September. The place is sooo nice, I cannot wait till I can move out tho! Theo is gone!!! I just dont see us as a couple....Ive tried really hard to be attracted to him but it jus didnt work. Which leads me to the next point my new luv interest. I met her online and cannot stop thinkin about her since we've been together...gives me the chills jus thinkin bout her. (sorry baby I know u didnt want me to mention u, but ur a part of my life now!) Well anyway I gotta bounce cuz my baby is standin right in front of me...till a lil later
holla atcha girl!

B, I miss u :(

Well, The Secret's Out

So...like a dumb ass, I sorta outted myself on this website. I didnt really say I was a lesbian or bi, but I did say Bi-Curious...whiich is exactly what I am. It scares the hel outta me that I got caught. I was only caught by two gay guys from my school, but its still scary to think that others I know could possibly find me on this site.

In a weird way, I guess that I dont care...but then again
I DO!!! I wonder what my friends would think, and how my family would take the news. Honestly Im not really Bi or Lesbian, I just haven't made up my mind. I guess Im just curious is all. Or maybe Im in denial...supressing my inner desires. I think that I just need to keep experimenting until I find out who I really am (straight, Bi, Lesbian). Maybe its just a phase and I'll grow outta it. Girls are jus so hot I cant help it....

As of late, Ive contemplated ending the blog. More outta fear than anything else. If I leave it up, theres a good chance that someone else I know may stumble upon it and find out my "dirty lil' secrets" Hell most people arent even aware that I have sexual desires lol (Im such a goody two shoes!) I dont know....I jus need a lil guidance, Ill give it some time. Until next time, holla atcha girl