To Her...

Since I couldnt manage to get a hold of her, I sent her a message and apologized but her responce was....
It doesnt matter anyway...
This whole thing between us has been on my mind all day and night, to find out that she went to Chicago to see her...it tears me apart. But it also helps me to move on. So in responce to her I wrote...

Yeah, I realize it doesnt matter, honestly I dont think that anything does to you. You have confirmed a lot of things for me. How you can just go to Chicago and see that cock lovin bitch its beyond me, especially after hearing you constantly talk about how she does you. She's selfish and bi, and thats not gonna change. But if thats what you want, more power to you. That was so wrong that you had me over for nothing more than to use my computer. The whole time you didnt talk to me, all you did was text; you barely let me touch you which is fine and dandy. The way Im feelin right now has nothing to do with sex, contrary to what you think, its a matter of the heart. I have given up so much for you, and was willing to go even farther, but you havent shown me anything recently that would indicate that my sacrifices have even been worth the end outcome (hell you cant even talk to me unless you want something, or there is no one else). Your over me, and thats fine. I would just have appreciated that instead of you having me over and leading me on that u have just told me that you really want nothing to do with me. I hope that you figure yourself out, and find whatever it is thats gonna make you happy in a way that i cant. I love you, and always will, Im just done. This is something that i truely mean, you've had or will have sex with her, and because of that I dont want you. I havent had sex since the last time that I was with you, but Im pretty sure over the next few days thats gonna change. So I hope that she's worth it, because you will never be with me again. We coulda had a real future together...what do you and would you have with her, maybe something until she decides to leave u and fuck Adam or some other guy...well anyway, Ive got work in the morning so I guess Ill talk to u whenever.


Her responce was...

I don't have to have your permission to come to chicago.....Yes i wanted to see her, but I just needed to get away from Columbus and mitchell for a min.... And I don't care if you go back and tell him that i said that, seeing how he told me yall are best friends again. Ha! Whatever I thought you respected my wishes on that?....And i don't need you to use your computer wtf? I was burning a damn Cd. NOT that serious......you're just mad cuz everytime you tried to come onto me, I wasn't feeling it. Sorry, but when i told you i didn't really want to be around you or anything til Sept. i meant it. But you chose to still come around, so I just tried to be cool with you. True, I lost you to that bitch, but in the end you've lost me. cuz you haven't went about this whole situation the right way....So when you say i'll never be with you again, do you think i truly care? not anymore.

Then I said...

No, you dont have to have my permission to go to chicago, but if you cared anything about me you would have shown a lil compassion about the way I felt for you. But like I said before, you wanna be with that bitch its all fine and dandy. Second, Mitchell and I aren't bestfriends. The only reason I called was because I wanted to figure out what the hell was going on, since you didnt have the courtesy to tell me. Its not like we talked about anyting besides you. Your wishes would have been respected had you let me know what was up. Mitchell is cool peoplez, Im not tryin to bring him into anything. Finally I chose to come around because you kept calling me. But its all cool. Like you said you'er over me, and the more I think about this whole situation the easier it makes it for me to say FUCK YOU. So I guess you do you and I'll do me. Maybe one day we can be friends

Then she said...

I'm not with anybody actually....And no fuck showing any compassion for how you feel....I know how you feel but i was tired of hearing it. And don't try to put it all on me, that the reason you came over was cuz i call you....WHO wanted me to come pick them up at 1 n the morning cuz they wanted to see me? And how many times did you say we were done talking but yet you still called. BLAh..........anyways i have better things to be doin right now, later. P.S. Fuck u too?

Then I said...

Well sorry for expressing how I felt about you. All you had to do was tell me how much you hated me and I woulda stopped. I mean I seriously think you hate me. Sorry for what I did, I made a mistake but obviously you havent forgiven me. As for wantin to see you at 1am, I was tryin to see you earlier than that but had trouble gettin ahold of u, you claimed you wanted to see me too. I wont ask you to come get me anymore. Its all cool, Ive said it before but Im really done. I know its gonna be hard but I will prevail, I always do. So have a good time doin what ur doin.