I hate holidays

I swear, when it rains it pours. It jus seems like nothing in my life can workout right. It has to be me, I guess I deserve things to be this way. Mark my words though...this is not how Im going to spend next year. Too much bullshit this past year, especially the end of it. It all jus happens at once. My mom and her bullshit, my lil sister living with me, and then finally I get dumped...Its my fault though, cuz I set myself up to be a rebound and blinded myself from seeing it.

Its all good though, cuz just like the tattoo that Im getting, I WILL PERSEVERE! I always do and always will...minor setbacks is all. I really hate the holidays. They're so fuckin depressing. I spent thanksgiving alone and Christmas will be the same. I swear its jus another day. Its all good though. I dont even know what the hell or why the hell Im typing. It feels so good jus to rant and get it out. No responce, no judgement. Im sick of being criticized and joked on. I feel like a new person. I thought I was guarded with myself before.....

I will never again be put into a situation where I fall vulnerable. This year says goodbye to the nice, compassionate, giving Crystal, and ushers in the I could give two shits less, cold and frigid, its whatever ice queen....