I turned away...

I feel really bad...we talked and decided to jus wait to start a relationship when he comes back (maybe, but i didnt tell him the maybe part) But we hung out. It was fun we played tennis (I Venus Williams'ed his ass) We get to the house he walks me to the door step. We hug and he then leans in to kiss me. I turned away. I was like we said we were gonna be friends for now, and he was like "Oh, for real" and i was like "yea..."
I said it kinda joking like but all the same I said it. I feel really bad. I wish I could take it back...he was probably hurt. I was talkin to my friend about it and like she made me feel worse. Why musy I have commitment problems??? Should I feel bad?