My First

Welp...

I guess the best way to start is to just do it, ya kno. But where to start...thats the real question. Im Crystal for anyone who wants to kno (or even really cares for that matter). I figure journaling is all good, so why not make it avaliable to the public. Today has been the most up and down day. Where you get good news...always comes bad. No real way to express what Im feelin so I'll jus layout the situation. A couple of months ago my mom had a small heart attack and stroke. The doctors told us that surgery would be necessary, but they couldn't do it at that time due to the amount of swelling and blood in her brain. Here it is a couple of months later and they've been conducting tests to decide if now is the time.
Well, yesterday we went and had an MRI done. She got a call today saying that they think that it might be worse than a stroke or heart attack. The doctors have reason to believe that its brain cancer!!! How can this be??? Why my mom? Why now...she's only 42!!!
Right now I seriously dont kno how to feel. Im really in shock...Seems like one bad thing after another in my life. I dont even have the strenghth to dictate every thing else thats happened in the last few months...guess Ill save it for another rainy day.