So Confused (damn u theo!)

So...I went to Red, White, and Boom with Theo and a "couple" good friends of mine. Somewhere along the way I told Theo that I wouldn't mind goin out with him. (I mean he's liked me for more than a year now and recently we've started to hangout.) I guess that meant that I gave him the go ahead to start using titles...
We were in Krogers and he runs into some of his friends from church and he starts introducing me as his girlfriend.

I WASN'T FEELIN THAT!!!

Now I feel really bad because he is a really nice guy and we have been hangin out a lot, but to me thats exactly what its been...hangin out. I really am not attracted to him but he's really cool to hang out with. I jus have a problem seeing him as my boyfriend. Dont get me wrong he's perfect boyfriend material. Hes a complete gentlemen, pulls out my chair, opens doors, pays for everything, the whole nine. I just really cant be with him.

Maybe I'm afraid of commitment. But, honestly, who wouldn't be. Im 18, an incomming freshman at the Ohio State University this fall (which happens to be the 1st or 2nd largest university in the nation), and I'm not a bad lookin girl if I do say so myself. He's 25, not very cute and doesnt even have a hot body. Then the plot thickens further...he's goin into the National Guard. He's leaving for four months in August.

I think Im jus gonna have to talk to him today and let him kno that I jus cant do this. I cant be his girlfriend. He expects me to wait for him while he's gone for four months...dude, thats a hell of a lotta time when u consider the amount of guys Ill meet on campus. I feel bad that Im really about to break his heart. I jus really dont kno what to do yet...guess I'll let it drag on for a while. Till Later...holla atcha girl